a letter to you

i still remember

in every afternoon when you came home from school, you asked me to put off your shoes and then i just digged your pocket to find some money. I always got it because i knew you always have it even without you told me.

i still remember when i was five or six years old when we went to the garden, you carried me on your shoulder, then your walked into the river and taught how to swim, and i did it, and you were so happy for me. you always there when i was afraid of the deep water, but i knew there was your hand to reached out for.

i also realised that you've inspired me, not only by words but by the things you had done. This is actually a strong foundation you provided for me, that enables me to feel strong enough tostand on my own feet.

until one early morning when i was to leave home, i hold you tighly, kissing your hand and foot and shed your tears away...not knowing it would be for the last time, until you leave us forever.....

i found myself a new blind in a strange.............but i remember you ...who always be strong in every storm.

i realised that you were lonely because most when we grew up we left you to make or own world.

day after day have gone without you and i miss you beyond words. what i miss most is time long ago when you were always there with us in every single problem, we knew we count on you.

now my life is a bit complicated, people coming into my life, some left happy memories in my heart, others just taking me for granted. But i know i must be strong becuase you taught me to be strong. You know what i got lots of new friend everyday and they are so nice to me.................................

( in a memory of my father)

Ya Allah, semoga Engkau memberinya tempat yang baik disisi-Mu, Amiin.